Wednesday, December 30, 2009

Today Sucked!

All is still going well with the baby, but today sucked it - big time. I hate to be negative, but YUCK. I'm glad this day is over.

First, I had to go about 2.5 hours out of town for work. They wanted me to go yesterday, spend the night and all of today and then come back tonight. I wasn't willing to go out of town overnight for work, especially since we were heading in the opposite direction of all of my family - you know, just in case. I agreed to go down this morning with another person from the office - not my boss but a very respected senior-level staff member. We almost made it to our destination, when I had to have him pull over so I could throw up on the side of the highway. How gross. And embarrassing. How very professional of me. I think my breakfast didn't agree with me and I've felt kind of crappy the whole rest of the day. Awesome.

Later in the day, I was in a meeting and had to email some files to one of the other people in the meeting. It was the first time I opened my email all day. So, I'm in the middle of this big meeting and I see a message from my sister, aka the troll. I haven't heard anything from her in about 3 and a half months. I couldn't help but start to read it and it completely overtook my concentration. Of course, she was mean and said crappy things and now it was all I could think about. I'm sure it's part of her passive aggressive agenda to send this to my work address. Damn her!!!

Then, I finally get home tonight (yay - no puking!) and I got on FB to find out that one of my closest friends just lost the horse she's had since she was a little girl - more than 20 years. I was instantly bawling. Our animals mean the world to both of us. We talked and I think she's doing OK, all things considered, but she really didn't need this right now. She's just coming off of a tough breakup. She's a wonderful person and I hate to see her hurting.

This day needs to be OVER. I'm going to bed.

Tuesday, December 15, 2009

I'm Still Alive

So, um, yeah. I've been a bad blogger. Really bad. It's been 26 weeks since I posted. 26 weeks! Sheesh!

OK, so what have I been up to all of this time? Well, for one thing, I'm still pregnant!!!! Holy crap! We're actually having a baby!

What else? Well, life. It's been busy. I've still been reading and keeping up with everyone, but I just haven't taken the time to post. I'll give you the quicky version of what I've been up to for the last six months.

Morning sickness. Why do they call it morning sickness? I felt OK in the morning, but was sick the rest of the frickin' day all through the first trimester. Suck! Suck! Suck! But after everything some of us go through to get pregnant, I didn't really want to complain about it. Thanks goodness it passed.

Worrying and freaking out. I really struggled with decisions about testing. Some dear friends had a baby with a terminal genetic disorder last winter. They lost her this summer right around the time we were having to decide if/what testing to do. Their struggle affected me deeply and was at the same time very inspiring. We opted not to do any kind of prenatal screening.

Work, work, work. Oh, how I wish I didn't have to come back to work after my leave. But my job's pretty secure and we need that paycheck. E lost his job this fall and was out of work for a little while. Luckily he's working again. And this schedule may even work out so that we can go without daycare for a while. Yay! And for the most part, all is going well with our rental properties. There hasn't been much drama in a while.

I'm a Mrs. Yep. We got married this fall. We had an intimate ceremony with just a handful of family and friends. I was 22 weeks pregnant, which made dress shopping a serious challenge. :) I also found out that wedding planning isn't nearly as much fun when you're nauseous. But it turned out to be a perfect day. Married life is going well. I'm still in the process of changing my name, though. Ugh!

My sister sucks. She didn't come to the wedding and didn't have anything nice to say about the baby. Her response? "Oh." She's a fertile so I know she doesn't get it, but seriously? What a troll! We used to be fairly close, but she's chosen to spend her life with someone who's miserable and it has clearly rubbed off on her. I shed a lot of tears over it and lost a lot of sleep, but I've decided I don't need the extra stress. I just wish I got to see her kids without having to suck up to her. I hate that she uses them as a weapon.

Feelin' good. I really feel blessed that everything is going so well. The baby's doing great. I haven't had any bleeding or other scary events. I'm within the normal range on weight gain. I'm definitely getting round (I'll post a pic or two soon) and slowing down a bit, though. Sometimes my back hurts and I have heartburn. All. The. Time. But we're so lucky!

We're having a... Well, we found out a long time ago, but that warrants its own post. I have the nursery bedding and paint and hope to get everything done this weekend. I'll post a picture.

It's been so long that I still have lots more to say, but I think that's enough for now. Maybe that will force me to get back into posting regularly.